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Published by Kalvin on Friday, March 28, 2008 at 4:03 PM.

This is Day 8.
First Week was smoke free, well ... not so free as I had some guests who smoke like me.
It's quite odd not to carry any lighter or my cigarettes box now.
Every morning, I had to put the patch but puu recommend me to reduce the duration of patch too and I'm trying to remove the patch earlier. So .. today .. I'm planning to put the patch only at lunch time.
Nicotine feeder pills are so strong for me, maybe because of patch. So far only 2 pills for whole week as supplement.
For the first time in my life, I got a thought that I'm doin' great.

Published by Kalvin on Monday, March 24, 2008 at 11:18 AM.

End of Day 2 and Beginning of Day 3
Day 2 : After end of office hour I'm still in the office as usual. At that time, I get my first urge to light up. I know it will come and I feel it for the first time. Before this day, I used to go out, take my pack and light up to ease the urge. This won't happened this time. I don't know what else to do, but there's only 1 thing prepared for this situation. Nicotine feeder pill, which has 1mg of nicotine.
I took first pill on second day, the taste was lousy, something like eating cigarette in raw. Or it's like somebody drop a cig in the soup and drinking it. After 5 min of that pill in my mouth .. start feeling dizzy and can't stand that thing anymore .. so I spit it out. No more urge to light up.
Get back home, had dinner then ... again .. urge to smoke, I don't stay outside, get back to my PC and start playing game, wait for gf's for phone conversation, continue playing until I get sleepy. Remberber to remove the patch before bed time too.
Day 3 : Get up with something wrong, I don't know until I put the patch after shower. Instead of dizziness like the first day, I feel like okay. Read a book all the way to office. Nothing unusual until lunch time. I'm having good appetite today, everyone noticed it. Maybe because of new food court or just because of smoke free life for 3 days. But I know I'm still depending on nicotine and the level of nicotine in my blood doesn't drop much.
One of my friend advice to have quarter or half of nicotine feeder if I had some urge to light up. Yes I should try that too. I think whole pill (1mg) was too much for me now. It's after 2pm and still no mood to smoke.
But I notice that there's a bit of constant drowsiness for 3 days since I start using the patch. And my skin was over-sensitive to most of the chemical agents, such as detergent, so this patch too. I found a bit of irritation where I put the patch. But the amount of irritation was nothing much to bother.
Night-time will be another small battle between self-determination and desire. I believe I will win this battle.

Published by Kalvin on Wednesday, March 19, 2008 at 2:16 PM.

Smoking was an serious social and health issue for a long time. Here in singapore, smoking in certain location can cost you 500 to 1000 or even might end up in jail. Carrying illegal cigarettes also considered as commiting crime. So, the price of any brand of cigarettes ranged from 7/8S$ to 11/12S$ per package ( 20 sticks ). That amount of money was quite enough to eat two normal meal in almost any food courts.
But stills there's a lot of smokers out there. Who are smoking just outside of the office building, around the cornor of the elevator, staircases or near sidewalk. There's still a lot of cigarette butts in bus-stop's trash bin, train station's ash-tray. I'm one of the regular butts thrower to those bins.
Quitting is the special thought that I have a few years ago. I never urge anyone to stop/quit it and I don't think about quitting it too. I never envy any smoker who can successfully quit it. A few people request me quit, my ex-gf forced me to quit, my mom and dad are not happy when they found out that I'm a heavy smoker but they don't discuss about it with me, except requested me to reduce the frequency.
3 years ago, that was the duration when I think I reach the peak of my consuming limit, which is 3 packs for 2 days, sometime 2 packs per day. I feel like an ashtray, sometime chain-smoking ... and workaholic .. working 16 hrs a day, eating bullshit meals and don't make any personal/social contact except my co-workers and clients. My clients called me that I'm walking chimney.
But after finalizing hand-over process, I start reducing it to one pack per day. After most of the important exams .. I can reduce one pack per two day. Then when I start working in singapoare I can reduced until one pack per 4~5 days. That's not an easy process, it took me more than one year. Then .... that's the time to take further steps, expert's advice and medication.
Two of my doctor friends urge me to quit it. My current girl friend don't force me to quit but she will be glad if I quit it and so do my brother. Last month I can dertermine myself on this decision. I know everyone around me are glad with this decision. First I stop smoking in my bedroom for last few months. Last weekend, we get to phermancy and get those quit-smoking aids, nicotine feeders. Yes I have to stop inhaling those smokes first. Then I have to reduce the level of nicotine in my blood.
I found an article a few years ago ... What Happens to Your body if you stop smoking Right now? I don't believe all of them but I'm sure it gave me some motivation. But that's not the reason to quit smoking. I feel like I don't want to cause any harm to my beloved one anymore, who are staying around me, walking, talking, dining & hugging each other. That's the feeling .. I should be something better for them than a ash-smelly guy. And I should treat my body in better way by stopping this habit.
Yesterday is the First Day after 14+ years of smoking. Nobody teach me to smoke, and I don't get my smoking habit from my family or friends. Because when I start smoking there's no smoker in my entire family and I'm the first one who start smoking among my friends ... because it's only 7th grade and too young to start light up a cigarette.
I'm quite sure that I start smoking just because there's a lot of cigarettes in my home. Why ? Because of my hometown's tradition, whenever a wedding ceremony, or any religious ceremony, close friends and relatives are invited in special way to give service for that ceremony. For that service there was a special invitation process.  The invitation include an invitation latter, one nice cloth and a cartoon of cigaretts ( yes 10 packs per cartoon. )
My dad is non-smoker, although he know how to smoke and I saw him smoke only once in my whole life. So, naturally there's a lot of supply in my home. Nobody bother to re-sell them. My mom & dad give those packs to whoever smoke .. but still .. there's quite number of cigs packs in multiple brands. So I simply light up one and try for each one of them. I don't remember any problem or difficulities at that time. But I don't do it often .. until I'm in 8th grade. At that time half of my friends know how to smoke but still ... I'm not a regular smoker until after 10th grade exams.
After that time ... I start my IT training and start working. Under certain tight schedule, circumstances and prolonged working hour ... I start smoking regularly to cope with my stressful situation. When I'm doin' for my 2nd diploma I was addicted both alcohol and nicotine. I managed to quit alcohol in early 2000 but never plan to quit smoking until last year.
Day 1
Yesterday is the first day I start trying to quit smoking. I use nicotine patch, and bought some nicotine feeding pills if I think I need some. I don't need to take any pills so far but for the first day, I had a lot of physical and mental stress, got a few conflicts in several conversation. Well this was expected but not on the first day. The urge was great, I expected this one and I had prepared for this, yes, in bad way. I saved 1 stick of cigarette for such kind of situation and I used it on the first day, just because of such pressure.
I'm not blaming anyone including me, there will be no good-time to quit. I believe "now" is the acceptable duration to do this. I think I might need something else to handle such situation. I feel a little bit dizziness in the morning, just because I start using the patch since I woke up and lost appitite for food. Apart from these thing, everything was normal until I remove the patch before I sleep.
Day 2
2nd patch on my right sholder, less dizziness, normal breakfast/lunch and nothing else. I believe this patch keep the level of nicotine in my blood. So far, no urge to light up at all. I have to wait and see until bed time. I will write a bit more before I sleep or maybe tomorrow morning if I have some spare time.

Published by Kalvin on Tuesday, March 18, 2008 at 5:02 PM.

I've been online society for several years. Being online is like having second life ( Virtual Life ~ VL ). Having a new nick and you can have multiple nicks. Some people use their real name and when they did a mess, they are forced to quit. Another extreme is some people use multiple nicks and later they wasted their time over multiple VLs.
Most of the people staying online don't want to exposed their real life ( RL ). They hide their profile, they don't meet anyone outside, they don't show/post their photo online. They don't even say where are they staying and what profession they are doing.
Some still want the 5 minutes fame for nothing. Some try to link with some famous online people and some try to be follower of certain online-celebrity. Myanmar blogger has some habits to put friends' blog urls in side bar. Some are putting real friends, some are putting the urls of blogs they used to visit. But some are purposely put well known people's urls. Some try to quote a lot and say "Yes" a lot to certain people who they think they were famous.
Some people even did certain things which they don't do in their real life. Some do vandalism in order to get some fame. Some becomes crackers and use all kinds of hacking techniques from hacker's forum. Some even end up in jail. Some jumps into social network and did something annoying to the existing peoples to get notice.
From my point of view, all kinds of network can be defined as "Social network", including Chat Rooms, Message Board, Forums, Blogs, People's Network, Directory services and news groups. The similar properties for "Social Network" is vast amount of people are involving in it.
Some of the networks are not reliable, like chat rooms. But the information on the chat rooms are voltile ( except saving and logging ) when some are having permanent information which nobody can remove. Some of the networks has no way out, yes, you can register but you can't close/cancel/de-register your account. Some network doesn't sell/transfer your profile information until you try to close/cancel/unregister your account.
Some of the network use your email to communicate your contacts ( friends ). Some network ask you to invite more and more people. Some just ask to give your friends' email and they spam them for you. Some of them even ask you to surrender your email address and password, so they can spam the whole list of your contact. They called this as marketing, simple.
There's always a couple of stupid people in your friends and they do have your email address in their contact. Next thing you know was .. your mail box was filled with unread/unwanted invitation, daily. If you don't filter them, then you can't even read normal emails without searching inbox.
Whenever you are registering a social Network .. use your nick. If you want to use your real-name then try to have complete seperate accounts from your nick. Don't merge them as much as you can. The best practice is to have dummy email address, use that whenever you register to any website.
If you want to cancle, remove, delete or don't want to exist in that society, First thing to remember is .. Don't request the domain controller or website admin to remove/delete your account. Account deletion is a mess, in terms of marketing, social and technical point of view.
Some of the forums let you delete your post manually. Some lock after certain time. But most of the people's site let you change/remove photos and edit your profile. So what you can do is .. remove your photos, change your avatar and other profile particulars. If you can delete, delete all the comments, private messages and all other inter-messages between all of them. Then remove all your contact and friends in your profile. Change the profile setting to private, put your public photo/avatar to Black/White wall paper.
Then leave the network. But make sure you are the controller of your account and make sure your account was still active until removed by the site for long term inactiveness.

Published by Kalvin on Friday, March 14, 2008 at 11:12 AM.

Illustration of Life.
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Published by Kalvin on Tuesday, March 04, 2008 at 3:05 PM.

NINTENDO 8-bit Games
( You can play in your Browser )
Well .... this is for all the Generation-X people .. like me .. who love those games.
Okay I don't need to say anything anymore .. we all know very well about these games.
I'd love to play Top Gun again hehehhehee
this is the link
for those kids who donno NINTENDO 8bit or Family Game or whatever we called ...
This is the console.
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Published by Kalvin on at 3:04 PM.

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